the terrible fire of old regret is honey on my tongue

I feel it in my blood
In the fire and the flood
The beast that can't be killed
Even now you mark my steps
Lovely bitter water
All the days of our delights are poison in my veins
I know I shouldn't love you
I know

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continuation for [personal profile] devildo || its terrible potential has begun

Aug. 22nd, 2020 09:58 pm
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[continued from here]

The ending came quickly, as they so often did.

Little fanfare surrounded Alastor's exit... no floating appendages, no jovial crackling of her radio. Only the quiet ringing of piano keys to play him off as he vanished from sight, the last notes of a doleful wake. It seemed an inappropriately sober outtro, in contrast to the tone of the rest of the evening.

With Alastor gone, deep silence settled over the cabin. Save for soft footsteps while the flour and whiskey were tucked away, and the creak and latch of the door. The radio show he had pulled into existence dwindled away by the time she had finished, and then all that was left was the sound of grit and sand as it blew over the horizon and the occasional pop of the fire in her hearth. Little by little each trace of him faded, unsustainable without his magic, but even as his essence seeped out of the world, Lotte felt the creature take root in her mind. The worn mattress beneath her gave no comfort or relief. The red stag and the thrill and terror of it might very well haunt her for the rest of her days.

The feeling that had long plagued her, of feeling somewhere lost between this world and another was only intensified now. Time would flow, dawn would come, nothing in her little home would stretch itself larger than its physical shape ought to have been, and the world would return to its previous state. All would mend itself now.

All but her.

The idea that she could not be the same after what she'd done followed her, like her own gauzy shadow, through the following week. The days rolled in and out, hazy with dust, fragrant loaves of fresh bread and the slow drying of the original, ordinary bottle of whiskey that predated the harvest night. Lotte had never missed anyone, so she couldn't really say for sure that the strange restlessness she couldn't quite shake was covetous. Or that it had anything to do with Alastor in particular. If she had called something else up, would it have been such a distraction? Well, there really wasn't any way to know with Alastor and his like down there and Lotte wasting away up here - and that was just how it would have to stay.

She had no excuse to call Alastor and what good sense she possessed (along with pride, perhaps) prevented her from making another social call. She was stalwart in that, or so she thought.

But Lotte was not any great mountain or a deeply-rooted tree. She was kindling, and a spark of fire and a rush of air was all it ever took to change her course.

∅ ∅ ∅ ∅


Near a week and a half had passed, before the storm hit. It wasn't a surprise - this was probably closing in on the fiftieth storm Lotte had weathered in this place. The static electricity had woken her before dawn and she'd wasted no time tugging on her boots and wrapping the bottom of her face with a double piece of old cotton before she ventured out of the cabin to check that each sigil at the edge of town was intact. The farmers had instructions on how to refresh the sigils placed at the center of their acreage and along the borders - they would be on their own with no car or horse at her disposal to check them.

Surrounding the town itself, there were three. The head of the triangle lay about two miles up the road, just off a crossroads. She'd noticed early on that most of the storms rolled in from that direction, and so she'd created the barrier's tip there with some hope that it would slice through the force of nature and help distribute the power along the sides of where the barrier ran, rather than letting it hit them head on. That one had to be checked first, then she'd double back along the fence line to the other two.

After that, things had happened fast. Dark clouds had rolled in on her way to the last sigil point, and cast a shroud over the land that turned it black in a matter of moments. There'd been no choice but to run for the last sigil and then pray the storm held as she ran harder back through the fields to the shack, sparks of blue flame snapping at her her hair from along the fence line as she went.

There hadn't been enough time to seal up the shutters, plug the cracks in the door with rags and blankets and scribble a sigil on the door as she normally might have. Instead, she'd had to disappear into the basement with little more than a blanket to shield from the dust.

Dust storms came and went quickly, at least.

The cleanup had taken longer. Several hours of sweeping the sand and dirt from surfaces, dragging all the linens out to hang outside and beat the dust from them - because the barrier couldn't keep a storm out entirely. No, it only curbed the force, mitigated the damage.

It was well into the evening by the time she'd finished that, eaten some cold stew, a piece of bread, and settled in at her table with the whiskey Alastor had given her.

She'd earned a bit of celebration hadn't she? She'd managed to get a fire going, all the doors and windows were open to air things out, and she did have a little cough that needed soothing.

Of course, Lotte planned to make the bottle to last, so she hadn't poured too much. Which was.. admittedly hard to do after tasting it for the first time. Little favors allowed her to be alone for the coughing fit that followed her first sip. It was smooth, very smooth, but also by far the strongest thing she'd ever put in her body.

But it was good. Very good, really.

So good that Lotte didn't quite notice the warm, easy slide that took her from pleasantly tipsy to quite drunk all in her first glass.

And how she'd gone from the cheery warmth of sitting by her fire, reading a book by candlelight and listening to the radio to painting a rather large, improvised sigil on the wall of her shack well.... she really didn't know. She felt warm and loose all over, and it seemed like a perfectly reasonable idea to invite Alastor back for a chat and a drink. Why shouldn't she?

He had been more of a friend to her than anyone here! He was clever, had more than a bit of wit, and she missed the particular heat and bite of his magic. Like cinnamon and clove in mulled wine.

Lotte stepped back, wiping the blood on her pale green dress before her eyes fluttered closed and she called. This sigil was not so carefully crafted, but she felt no lack of magic in it, if anything, she felt like she knew how to call for Alastor better. Not at a physical place, so much as a wavelength in the magic, her intuition told her that this sigil was right for what she sought, and it was nothing to funnel her own magic through it to create a proper invitation. A door. All he needed to do was step through, because that was what she wished.

Why don't you come join me for a drink, Mr. Radio Demon?

Date: 2020-08-23 10:35 pm (UTC)
devildo: (.all you gotta do is say my name)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Time passed, for Alastor. There was no notable difference in its passage now, to what there had been before, but that was not to say he wasn't keenly aware of Lotte's absence from his life, which was as sudden as her presence had been. The idea of "missing" something that had taken up a mere hour of his life (no longer, yet, than a more fortunate mortal man's might have been) was incomprehensible, and so he would not say that he missed her. Still, those garnet-colored vials of Lotte's blood sat upon the shelf by the fireplace in Alastor's front room, and he gazed at them nightly. Some nights, the temptation to pop the corks, hold the glass in his hand, swallow them in one hot mouthful like a shot of fine brandy, was almost too strong to handle. When it did happen, he did exactly that - took a mouth-filling gulp of brandy and stared at them while he did so, imagining the difference between the two, the sharpness that would settle on his tongue when he finally deigned to drink the blood, in contrast to the burn of alcohol in his mouth.

The light would catch on the vials, shining through them like stained glass, when he lit his fire. This was every night, and it made every night agonizing. If anyone asked (which they didn't), he would say he was only playing a little game with himself, seeing just how long he could deny himself the pleasure of the drink before it drove him insane and he had no choice but to indulge. He would not say, for he did not believe, that it had anything to do with the company of the woman who slashed her wrists and bled for him.

And yet, inarguably, he thought of her: the flames dancing in his hearth, all cliches aside, resembled the color of her hair in the lamplight. The pull of his summoning, the few times it took place in the weeks since his visit with Lotte, sent a flare of curiosity through him - each time, he wondered if it might be her. Each time, it wasn't. (And each time, in truth, he knew better. The feeling of a more practiced act of black magick was incomparable to the artless reaching of someone like Lotte.) Therefore it must be true, in some way, that it was her absence that he missed when he thought of the blood slipping thick down his throat, coating his stomach, settling softly there. Perhaps he would warm it, he thought, before he finally drank it. Doing so would pale in comparison from harvesting it straight from its source, but even the imitation had its worth.

How long he intended to leave those vials there, gazing at them every night from the safety of his favorite armchair, he wasn't sure. The occasion would feel right, one night, he was sure. Or perhaps, some particularly wrought transaction would take place between himself and some insufferable mortal soul who called him up from Hell. Then, he would feel he deserved it, had earned it, could spare the finest vintage in his cellars. So far, the time wasn't right. The days passed, just the same as every other series of ten or so days, in and out, dull and uneventful.

This was the reason for this feeling akin to longing, when he looked at her blood in the firelight. The evening Alastor spent with her was the first in a long time that didn't feel just like the others - the first with a spice, a panache, that the ordinary rhythm of his days just couldn't match. He spilled blood, struck deals, grew interminably and intermittently stronger, but nothing happened.

The blood on the shelf, in itself, was not maddening, but tantalizing. The maddening thing was his sudden awareness that there was no end to this stream of days, repeating endlessly, over and over again. It called to mind an awareness of his youth. There were things here, so many, far older than Alastor. What would be his lot, when he reached their age? Would his mind dull, bashed in by the drudgery of thousand, million, identical days? The thought sent a shudder through him. If he'd contemplated it before, in his time here, it was never with such sincerity.

He wasn't willing to admit this was it.

The night Lotte called for him again was just like any other.

He sat in the same armchair, the same snifter of brandy pressed to his lower lip, poised between sips, the same amber glow shining through the steadily darkening blood on the shelf by the fire. His legs were crossed in the same way as always, one dangling over the other's knee, the same shoe planted in the same pile of the same rug. Light danced off the lacquered shine of his coffee table, tickled at the edges of his vision where it caught the gold leaf in the wallpaper, and dissipated to almost nothing, in the far corners of the opposite wall.

All of this was the same, and he was caught in the same lull of normalcy that nearly every evening possessed, when a heat gripped his chest.

A living man might have thought he was dying. Alastor was startled by it, but no more than that. He looked around, ears craning behind him, listening out for the sign of company at his front door. But it wasn't that. The company was closer, and much more foreign.

Across from him, the barely familiar and yet unquestionably identifiable blackness was growing in the corner of the room. His ears perked, his hair stood on end. If this wasn't Lotte again, he'd be damned. He could swear that it was, the opening between the worlds felt so similar. Racing ahead of him, his shadow slithered across the floor, towards the growing shadow of a doorway on the wall. It wanted to go. It was sure of something he told himself had no reason to be true.

But he stood, setting the glass down and following it. One moment, the fire was crackling behind him, the next, it was in front of him, as he stepped through the passageway, and back into Lotte's familiar home.

She swam into focus in front of him as he parted the veil, the fuzziness of the light bouncing off her curls in that familiar, golden way, until it focused down to a faint back light, a soft halo around the strands of hair that frizzed up from the rest. But she looked wild tonight, her eyes bright and manic, her smile easy. Alastor spied the whiskey bottle on the table, from the corner of his eye. Ah, there was the reason. She'd been enjoying herself, without him.

His feet fully met her floor, bringing him solidly into the room, just a few paces from her. His smile, though practiced and automatic, was genuine. It was a delight to see her so undone, so filled to the brim with the extra boost of confidence that good whiskey would bring. "Good evening, my dear," he purred, and his throat was so hot with the words it was as if he hadn't spoken in a week. "To what do I owe the pleasure?"

Date: 2020-08-26 01:34 am (UTC)
devildo: (is a cold chiseled dagger)
From: [personal profile] devildo

It was simpler, and the thing that made it so was Alastor's shadow pushing ahead of him, eager like a pet, a senseless animal that craved attention above safety. The trouble was, it was no such thing. It was his point creature, his lookout. It sensed trouble before Alastor ever did, astute as his wits may be, and relayed it back to him. His shadow was not, in fact, senseless; if it surged forward, it was only because it knew the way was safe, and would pave it for him.

The shadow rippled out ahead of him and dug its way into all the creases between the floorboards again, so that it nearly took up the entire floor, in its own way. It settled deeply into them, a smooth, black mortar plugging up the holes, pushing out the dust. That was no exaggeration - the dust did, indeed, clear where the shadow went, and it filtered not just through the spaces between the floorboards, but up into the joins in Lotte's walls, to the frames of her windows, making itself comfortable and eradicating that which was unwanted.

Alastor, on the other hand, felt wholly welcome. Disturbingly welcome, if anything, for there was, as there had been the last time, no suggestion that he was needed for anything. He could always tell. There was a bitterness hung about in the air like cobwebs, when he was called to make a deal, something desperate and sour, tinged with longing and regret. Those humans were frantic, no matter the degree of their bravado, rehearsing their lines long before he appeared, practicing just the way in which they would ask, to make sure they asked the right thing and didn't find themselves saddled by some unfortunate loophole. Some, of course, were not so smart, and the loopholes were there, loose enough to hang them with. But that was their problem, not Alastor's.

Here, despite the dust, the air was clear, not sour with desperation. He looked around the room like he was seeing it for the first time, taking in the unfiltered quality of the atmosphere, clouding everything in a haze that was even more visible to him than it would have been to Lotte's human eyesight. This was a shame, a really wretched thing, that someone could live in such dry and aching squalor. He wondered again, why she didn't meet him with that familiar desperation. But no. She was only offering him a drink from his own supply.

"Never too busy for you," he said, and he supposed it was true. Why should he be? She offered the drink, and he nodded in agreement. He would have joined her at the table, but she was too swift, prattling on about her unfortunate circumstances while she approached him with the glass outstretched. He took it. Should he show her that he could step beyond her bonds? Was it too soon? He'd been aching to show her, despite the thrill of knowing it was a secret he kept from her, last time.

"Why," he said, "you are a more remarkable lady than you give yourself credit for! I would certainly like to see my way around these parts, see what stock you've got to pride yourself on." He took a sip from the glass. It went down far more pleasantly, of course, than her dirt water of a whiskey she'd plied him with, before. "Does that interest you at all? Showing me around?"

Date: 2020-08-29 03:19 am (UTC)
devildo: (your daddy should be leaving)
From: [personal profile] devildo

What did remarkableness matter? Perhaps it mattered to Lotte, in her short life, to be remarkable. It didn't matter much to Alastor. What mattered to him was difference, which begat intrigue. A thing needn't be remarkable to possess those qualities. Hell was remarkable, for sure, but it was also powerfully dull. Anything Lotte could show him was scads apart from that.

His shadow misted up like seafoam, where her fingers reached out to touch it, prancing around her grasp in mid air, thin threads of sentient smoke. It licked at her fingertips and darted away again, as if shy, though it wasn't a shy thing, at all.

Its consideration, as always, mattered to Alastor. Its touching at Lotte's fingertips reassured him that he was correct, that he could step beyond the bounds of the circle, without ill effect. It went into the spaces between the floorboards because it was comfortable there, of course, but it also went, as always, to step in front of him and be sure that the way was safe. Without it, he would surely have fallen into many a dull or even dire situation, in times passed. While they were, in ways, the same creature, still he owed it his life for keeping the lookout for him. And it hummed now, through the static that surrounded him, that there was no magic here that would seek to obliterate or harm him if he chanced to move forward as he so desperately craved to do, like a fire in his blood.

And oh, he craved it. The desire bubbled in his blood like laughter, buoyant with the idea that she would recoil in alarm when it was finally revealed to her. He could imagine it now, the way her eyes would widen again like dinner plates, the way her pulse would dance in her veins like a caged thing, when she knew he was not, himself, so caged as she thought.

"Ah!" He exclaimed. "That's certainly no trouble! No need to worry yourself with that, dear, I've got it all taken care of. If you'll only step back -" He motioned with his hands, brushing towards her, to shoo her slightly away from him. "I'll take care of the rest."

Here, then, was the moment.

It was nothing for him, but he supposed it might be everything, for her. The urge was there, to raise his claws to the edge of the circle again, as he had on his former visit, but his shadow hissed at him that it wasn't necessary. This was the same magic, and he was as acclimated to it as he had been, before.

He need only take a step forward, and then another, narrow feet silent on the floor. And then he crossed it.

There was a wavering in his shape again, a shudder that ran through Alastor and shook his shoulders. He shivered and righted himself. Here, now, on the other side of the circle, standing on bare floor, Lotte was even clearer than ever, and his smile widened, ah, he was so pleased with himself. It comforted him, that pleasure, warm like a drought of hot cider pouring down his throat. He leered at Lotte with all his teeth on display. "Simple as pie," he assured her.

Edited Date: 2020-08-29 03:20 am (UTC)

Date: 2020-08-31 12:28 am (UTC)
devildo: (here you got a solid plan b option)
From: [personal profile] devildo

One of Alastor's ears cocked towards the floor and the sound of the glass clanking against it. How delicious, that sound; it was just as pure a sound of shock as Lotte could have made with her own mouth. It was the sound of Alastor affecting his surroundings without ever reaching out to touch them. The remainder of the liquid splattered across the wood, and his shadow reached out fingers from its places between the cracks, to soak up the whiskey. Waste not, want not.

Alastor's pupils were wide and dark, subtly spiraling in the yellows of his sclera, while he watched Lotte. He bent just a little at the waste, keening towards her and the sound of her frantic heartbeat. Just close enough that he could smell her more clearly, smell the dust that clung to her and shrouded the scent of her fear in a layer of earthy drabness. But he could smell beyond it, catch the scent of her pulsing blood. His nostrils flared, and his eyes fluttered shut for a beat.

"Not always," he said, with a wave of his hand, as if to say that it was nothing, surely not as remarkable as anything Lotte herself had done. But he thought what she said next was true - she should have been warned away from him. Someone should have loved her that much, but they hadn't. There was no one to raise her up without the desire for otherworldly things, and no one in her life now to warn her off what she'd done. No one to question whether summoning Alastor was a poor decision. This suited Alastor just fine. It might be the source of Lotte's eventual ruin, but it was to his own advantage.

He downed the remaining whiskey in his glass, and set it politely on the table, before he went to follow Lotte to the doorway. His shadow followed him, first picking up what was left of the girl's spilled glass, and place it likewise on the table. A polite guest would never leave such a mess.

Lotte went ahead of him quickly, and Alastor was in no rush, anyway. Hands clasped behind his back, he took the time to enjoy the leisurely pace of his walk from the table, through the doorway, into the slightly cooler air outdoors. Cooler, but no clearer. Worse, in that department, really. He lifted his hand, two fingers raised, and swirled them in a flourished, semi-circular pattern above his head. The dust came together in their wake, sucked up as if by a magnet, and cleared the air in a sort of bubble around himself and Lotte that extended several meters above their heads. It greatly improved the view of the night sky, at least to his eyes.

"Whatever you'd like to show me." His shoulders shrugged, and he meant what he said. He was quite amenable to anything Lotte might have wanted, him to see. "What are you most proud of? There must be something."

Date: 2020-08-31 02:26 am (UTC)
devildo: (girl just say it three times in a row)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Alastor could breathe as surely as anyone else, but it was a comforting habit rather than necessary for his continued existence. Watching Lotte take in the clean air caught him by surprise, served up a memory of what it felt like to be running, out of breathe, grateful and hungry for the relief of finally taking a clear breath when the pounding pace of his feet came to rest. Some elements of the memory were pleasant, others less so. It called to mind a million mundane moments, happy summers as a boy, sailing buoyant through the row of conjoined yards behind his mother's home, alongside other moments, fraught with panic and then the crispness of relief. And then others, when the relief never came.

But these things, even his own memories of panicked fear, washed over him and passed like the ephemeral things they were. Those things weren't worth remembering. What was worth it, were the moments where he knew he had felt as Lotte looked now, wholly human in a way that, while fragile, seemed blessed with possibility.

At first, when she said he'd seen it before, he wondered what she meant. Her house, perhaps? It was surely to be proud of in some small way, a place that he could feel in every board was her only haven in this world, the place that was the safeguard of her powers, smelling of herbs and woodsmoke, holding in its bowels a carefully curated collection of the belongings that enabled her to sustain herself, out here. That was something to be proud of, to live and grow and survive against the odds of the place and the will of the people around you. That, too, he understood. He would have found it an acceptable answer, but then, she continued speaking, and that wasn't so.

A shock rippled through him like a thin finger of lightning. This, her words, shouldn't be true, but the sincerity in them was unmistakable. The corners of his smile curled in a feline way, too sharply upturned for a human mouth. He tsked at her, his tongue clicking against his sharp teeth.

"That's a sin, you know," he told her. "To take pride in something you didn't create. Is that what you'd call me, my dear? Some creation you take the credit for?" He shook his head, but it was insincere mocking at best. His long shoes padded across the dry grass brimming with settled dirt, stepping towards Lotte and around her in a half circle. He adjusted his monocle and stared out past her, into the dust-shrouded dark. "Should a man be proud of himself for God's answer to his prayers?"

Date: 2020-08-31 11:33 pm (UTC)
devildo: (go ahead & jump that won't stop him)
From: [personal profile] devildo

People prayed for lots of things. What God sent was another matter. He surely didn't send demons, and didn't answer most requests, at all. It was up to creatures like Alastor to pick up the slack, to bestow the gifts God wouldn't, or was too busy to. There was not rhyme or reason he could see, to which prayers were answered by the Divine. It had nothing to do with the wickedness of the request, it seemed. He'd been called up by plenty of people looking for nothing more than an escape from a bad situation, a cure for some ailment. And plenty of others who never called him, who did receive these things from their God.

It seemed to Alastor that God was a fickle and capricious being who didn't operate within the bounds of any understandable rules. That was crass, if true. Alastor at least had the decency to hold himself to certain standards. That was more than he could say for the truth of God's involvement with the human race, as he knew it.

They were pathetic creatures, in need of care. Alastor cared for them, did he not? He came when he was called, he played by the rules, he kept up his end of the bargain, and the bargain was always clearly delineated, easy to understand, easy to consent to, or refuse. Was that not more benevolent than the whims of God? He thought so.

"I would very much like to hear you pray." He regarded Lotte from the corner of his eye, fire-read behind his monocle. She didn't pray. He couldn't imagine it, couldn't imagine her begging or prostrating herself. Wouldn't want to, anyway. It didn't really suit her. He would rather see her wreathed in frames, demanding. Taking what she knew she deserved.

"Can't say I do," he chirped with a little bounce in place. "But then again, the repeat customers are few and far between." Once you sold your soul, after all, what else was there to barter? People didn't think to offer anything less, most of the time. They went straight for the big sell, like it mattered.

He spun back around to face the house, a little swirl of dust kicking up from the ground and spinning around his legs. He pointed towards the near-buried garden. "Is that all you've got? Or do you have a real garden, 'round the back?"

Date: 2020-09-01 08:23 pm (UTC)
devildo: (just like they say in the Bible)
From: [personal profile] devildo

The tip of Alastor's claw tapped his bottom lip. His ears rotated owlishly out to either side, to listen past the left and right of Lotte's property. Only at the very edges of his hearing did Alastor begin to register sounds that indicated another human living space. The closest thing, as far as he could tell, was the business-he-didn't-know-was-a-fuel-station and its constantly creaking sign. It had to be a business, and not a home - both times Alastor had been here, the only sound coming from it was the creaking. No humans moving around, no conversations. It was past closing time.

Lotte had already been quite clear that no one came to visit, that no one was particularly interested in her unless they needed her assistance with them. She'd reiterated she had no friends or family to notice if anything here was any different than it had ever been. If the houses Alastor heard were as far away as they guessed (he could tell better if he started broadcasting and really felt for them, but there was no need), no one would pass by Lotte's by accident.

Having confirmed this to his satisfaction, he rounded back to Lotte, the tails of his coat flicking out behind him with a snapping sound. "You?" he laughed. "Only doing what you want? I can't imagine it!"

He watched her spin, a childish kind of delight flashing around her as sharply as the static in the air. Had she been alone so long she forgot how to do even this, to dance, to move for the joy of it? Humans lost what was precious to them so easily, they shed loves and simple joys and old familiar paths home from school and former favorite songs as easily as they shed hairs from their heads. It was wasteful.

As if he owned the place, Alastor gestured for Lotte to follow him and started walking along the side of the little house, to its back yard. While he walked (keeping a slow pace so that Lotte could traipse after him at whatever pace her current level of intoxication would allow her to), he answered her question, saying, "Miss it? Of course not. If I miss a thing, I just get!" One pointed finger punched into the air to emphasize this point. Self-deprivation, after all, was only another way of proving mortal moral superiority. In death, it was utterly useless. "I eat every day - it's unhealthy not to."

The back of the house was no better than the front. Gray, lifeless, otherworldly in a way that unnerved Alastor - the thick dust motes in the air, the silt piled up everywhere between the blades of yellow grass with broken backs, none of it was like anything he'd ever seen, on earth or in Hell. He raised both hands in front of him, at right angles to his elbows, the two fingers in the center of each hand slightly lifted from the others. "Tell me," he said, both to Lotte and to the dead grass, "what do you miss sinking your teeth into?"

Date: 2020-09-01 11:15 pm (UTC)
devildo: (here you got a solid plan b option)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Fair answer or not, Alastor chuckled, his nose twitching like a rabbit's for a moment. If Everything had only been a real answer, he could have snapped his fingers and made it so, littered the earth as far as her eye could see with every dish he could think of. That would be shocking, but...dull. A cheap party trick, useless in every conceivable way, since such an amount of food could never be eaten by one woman with no icebox, anyway. Besides, most of the time, that sort of thing was half illusion. No one would ever bother to try and eat every food you could think to conjure, so half of them needn't even be real.

This place, to be frank, needed something real. It was rare that Alastor got to do anything sturdy and simple, anymore. He could have made it happen with the blink of an eye, but he wriggled his shoulders, and turned his palms over, pointing those slightly extended middle fingers towards the ground. Far, far below, deep into the ground, the tendrils of his shadow and his much-less-visible infernal energy groped for water. It was deep, but it was there. His fingers curled towards his palms, drawing it forward and amplifying what was there.

"Trees," he said, "some old busybody will notice." A tree didn't leave quite enough room for reasonable doubt. Not a tree large enough to grow apples, anyway. If he was going to bother making something, it ought to at least get some use before it was stolen from or chopped down for its clearly unnatural nature. A garden, though? Someone could have simply not noticed that, before.

He took a deep breath, leaned forward, and blew. It wasn't forceful, but long, far surpassing any amount of air a human could have held in their lungs. The movement of air rushing forward cleared not just the atmosphere for several yards outside of the bubble, but all the dust from the grass below them, which was steadily livening, knitting itself together, blushing green. The dust vanished, when it was blown away - a cloud at the end of the yard, and then nothing. It wasn't piled up anywhere, wasn't floating higher into the atmosphere, simply wasn't there, anymore.

Alastor straightened, and looked back at Lotte, his hands briskly turning upright again, and flicking towards him at the wrists. In the instant his wrists snapped up, so did two neat, mounded rows from the earth (rich, dark now, full of moisture and all the things plants needed, to thrive), and from these mounds coiled the pale shoots of infant vines. "Now, a few tomatoes? No one will see that." The shoots continued to climb steadily out of the ground, the bright, hard bulbs of unripe tomatoes beginning to pop from them now and swell, turning redder by the second.

Date: 2020-09-02 11:40 pm (UTC)
devildo: (.all you gotta do is say my name)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Once, magic was something Alastor was required to practice. Something that came from outside of him, for which his body was a conduit. (This was not the say that the human body was not innately holy on its own - it must be, to conduct power beyond itself.) When he was saddled with this, with being ordinary, there was an ache that came with the completion of his spells, a feeling of letting go, of being unable to do (or go) farther. After a point, the success of what you'd sown was up to the power of something much greater than you were, by far. That never fully sat right with Alastor.

Of course, he denied it, when he was living. It would have been sacrilege not to, and more importantly, it would have been disrespectful to his mother, who did her best to teach him everything she knew, and the best to instill in him a proper reverence for the earth and for every living person who walked its paths before him. He never told her, never revealed the truth of how he felt, because what would it do, besides hurt her? In some way, perhaps, this was why Alastor eventually took his fate into his own hands.

Because the type of magic that relied on something else to bring it to its conclusion was not enough.

It was nothing like Alastor's magic now, that was for sure. This came from inside himself, seeped from his very pores, was now embedded in every cell of his body, in a way it never was, when he lived. It was as if life, itself, had been traded for raw force. This, the instant conjuration of something so benign, so nothing, at the end of the day, as a few tomato plants, was infinitely more to him than any working he'd ever been a part of in life.

His eyes narrowed, and his fingers tightened, his grip on the air strangling the ether pressed between his fingers, while Lotte sank to the ground and bit into the tomato. In the moonlight (now visible and silver, cutting and cold, in this dust-less bubble around them) highlighted its color and tinted it the ruddy-black of blood, in the dark. If not for the seeds sliding haphazardly down one side of Lotte's chin, caught in the elbow of her soiled dress, it might have been too easy to imagine it was a heart she sated herself on, arterial blood that dripped down her chin and stained her pale throat.

Alastor cleared his, one loose fist coming up to his mouth, to cough politely. "Hm," he said, "if that's what you wish. I think you're onto something, about Eve. They won't tell us a thing about her, either!"

He shrugged - he wasn't truly convinced Eve was ever a person who existed, anyway. If she was, wouldn't she be down in Hell, too, with all the other fools who were only doing what God asked them to? If she was, he'd never met her. His fingers, pointed now like a pistol, flicked out from his body, and in their wake, two of the tomato plants folded over on themselves, disappeared under the earth for a moment, and with another flick of his wrist, reappeared - this time as strawberry plants.

These plants popped up in kind, extending a few more feet down the yard, until there was an equal number of each type of plant. "How's that?" he asked, watching her keenly, waiting for that new burst of juice to wet her face.

Date: 2020-09-05 12:13 am (UTC)
devildo: (but first you gotta say my name)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Ripe as they were, those berries would stay that way for days, untouched by time until just a little too far past their natural inclination. And new ones would sprout where the stems were empty, over and over again just a little too fast, until the first frost of the winter. By then, if she had any sense about her, she would have canned them, and Alastor thought of her next spring, opening those jars, inhaling the scent, thinking of him.

And where would he be, then? Precisely nowhere, uncorking those bottles of her blood and doing the same. Or perhaps he would have slurped them down by then, and this would only be a memory, like so many other strange and pleasant moments in his life, which were too few and far between. Hell was so strange, in such a particular way, all of the time. It didn't hold any of the mystery the living world did. It wasn't nearly so unpredictable.

He watched Lotte's fingers disappearing into her mouth, a move that should have seemed pointed, lascivious, uncomfortable. Maybe it was meant to be, how should he presume to guess? But coming from her, it only looked as innocent as everything else she did, innocent in how genuine it was. She was really enjoying herself to that extent, the extent that she didn't care how she looked, or perhaps didn't even notice it. That was something. That was a kind of wanton abandon you never saw in Hell.

"I could," he purred, his smile close-lipped and coy, his eyes a little narrowed, the corners curling and feline, again. "I could do anything you asked me to, and then some. I'm remarkably cunning. But then, so are you."

He considered her question, curling his tongue around itself inside his closed mouth, his cheeks sucking in as he did so, the hollows beneath his cheekbones darkening to bruisey, unearthly depths. In truth, he didn't know the answer any more than Lotte did. The question was, whether or not to admit that. But he'd already promised her he was no liar. "Who can say?" he asked her, with a shrug. "I was minding my own business, enjoying my fireplace, you know, and then I saw you."

Date: 2020-09-05 01:33 am (UTC)
devildo: (girl the way i see it)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Alastor raised his hand in front of himself, palm facing Lotte, and shook it lightly from side to side, in time with the shake of his head. "No, no," he assured her, "I would never presume to impugn on a lady's honor like that. Nor at all, in fact!" His smile opened up, brightened. This was the truth of both matters - if she wanted to sell him anything, be it her blood or her soul, she would have to want to do so for herself. It was a dime a dozen, crossing paths with those who wanted to sell. That wasn't worth anything, for as often as Alastor saw it.

Not, of course, that her blood was worth nothing. The way he kept it, like a precious thing, impossible to replenish, indicated otherwise.

"But say," he said, gesturing widely to the space around them with open arms, "Say you could have anything you wanted. What would you have me do? Mend this whole place, take you out of here, smite the ones who wronged you?"

He smile narrowed, turned sly. "Surely there must be someone. Your parents who won't write, perhaps?" And they weren't here, so that would be a new adventure, in itself. He spun on his heel and turned to walk the length of the row of plants he'd called up, running his hand through the air above them, fingers outstretched. The reverberation of their life force hovered in the air, rising with the warmth it possessed, to touch his fingertips. The earth was supple, now, beneath his feet, and his shoes sunk into it with every step.

"Tell me," he mused, bending to touch the plants he'd created. Touching them sent a little thrill through him, even though he could only just feel the texture through his gloves. "Let's play a little game, again, shall we? I'll ask you something, you can ask me. What did they do to you?"

Date: 2020-09-07 01:19 am (UTC)
devildo: (to draw blood from a stone)
From: [personal profile] devildo

Well, Alastor wanted to say, but didn't, this place may be awful, but Lotte lived here. So what did it matter that mending it would affect other people, who didn't deserve it? If a person had to live somewhere, they may as well enjoy it. And so he watched her, bemused, his hands once again politely folded behind his back, while his shadow reached out to investigate each leaf of the plants he'd brought to life, in turn. Slowly, as it moved its way down the line, each leaf was gently flicked and raised, caressed by the darkness that emanated from him, and determined worthy the continue on. In one place, his shadow sprung fingers, and dipped into the dark and fragrant earth, feeling it out, nudging at the depths of the strawberries' roots.

"Yes," Alastor did say, toeing through that same dirt. He kicked at it gently, with the pointed toes of his shoes, upturning it in bumpy little rifts. Hell was all pavement, nothing you could sink into like this. Hell smelled like the exhaust of a thousand cars, a thousand bonfires, which at times had its appeal, but it was nothing like this, the dense, dark softness of fertile soil. "Your parents."

And she answered him, and he nodded along, made soft sounds of agreement where it was appropriate to do so. It wasn't until she mentioned the state troopers that he bristled, looking up from the plants to try and meet her eyes again, only to find that they and her fingers were dark. His nerves sparked, hair stood on end along his spine, to the carefully concealed tail beneath his jacket, which bristled at the thought of Lotte in the back of the paddywagon like some common criminal. What had become of this earth, while he was gone? What good could he have done, if he'd never left? He never had such cause to wonder about it as he did now, looking at her, knowing that what she said was so far out of line with what was fair.

His eyes followed the plume of smoke from her fingertips, into the sky, gently polluting the clean bubble of protected air around them. If he could have blown it away, without seeming disrespectful, dismissive of her magic, of her emotions, he would have. But her emotions were hers to feel, they were not Alastor's to take away, nor to try to unburden her.

"I know a place," he said. He was watching her intently, bright eyes glowing red and fixated on the blackness of Lotte's fingertips. "I was born in New Orleans, it's beautiful there. You'd love it! Not a speck of this dust in sight." Quite the opposite - the air there was warm and wet. At least, it was as he remembered it. A momentary streak of panic ran through Alastor when he wondered if, somehow, against all odds, his home had lost itself to some similar fate as this place, in the decade he was gone. "I was myself," he told her.

And that was true. Was anyone not? Dying didn't make you any less who you were. "I owned a bar, you know, when that was downright illegal. They never did catch onto me for that, I was quite selective about my patrons. If I said I could take you away, would you do it? Answer me, and it's your turn."

Date: 2020-09-13 12:17 am (UTC)
devildo: (forget a face of any man at the table)
From: [personal profile] devildo

With her own two hands, Lotte had said, a moment ago. Alastor thought of it, as he looked at her darkened fingers. The soot-blackness of them wrapped around the throats of her oppressors crept into his mind, and he wondered if she'd really have the mettle. Could she, truly, squeeze until there was no squeezing left, until muscle and bone and skin compressed together so tightly that nothing could get through, until she and her victim were one, the impression of their throat imprinted on her fingertips as surely as those fingertips were imprinted on the throat. He pictured them, dark like this, against the pallor he imagined her parents to possess.

"Hm," he trilled, eyes tilted skyward, no longer actually focused on Lotte herself, so much as the image in his mind. She was speaking, he heard her, but he was looking at something that wasn't there.

And then he became too aware of it, and leveled his gaze back on her, over the rim of his monocle.

"Ah," he said, "a dream itself is but a shadow, dearie, there's nothing to it. This was real, better than that." What good were dreams, anyway? They ended quicker than anything, all created and destroyed in an instant. The better thing, by far, was to live a life you chose for yourself, create a paradise you could wake to, not one you need escape to, in sleep. He'd done that. He'd done that he thought, in bitterness, his fists clenching at his sides, his fangs baring.

"Dreams are stuff and nonsense - you know that's true, or you wouldn't say you'd go with me." And she wasn't lying, he didn't think so. For better or worse, he trusted that she'd said she, too, was no liar.

But liar or not, she certainly was curious. Alastor paced around the row of plants, back to Lotte's side. She looked ordinary again, but no less entrancing, with her fingers returned to their usual color. He was almost grateful - if she'd gone on looking too strange, he might have doubted his own senses, believed himself in Hell still. "Nothing you need to worry yourself with," he told her. "Suffice to say you can only kill so many people, unnoticed."

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